It’s been raining for days here. Except for a few hours here and there. It nice too because it always seems to be when we decide to go for a walk to the park or something. Then when we get home it starts back up again. It’s a working miracle as we see it. We NEEDED moisture, we fast, and we receive. Awesome.
And when I say we, I mean the saints as a whole. My family was not apart of this miracle unfortunately. Fasting is a practice we need to reacquire. After 2 pregnancies and months of nursing afterwards we have kind of gotten out of the habit….and I guess more than that since sometimes we just simply choose not to fast even when we remember. It’ll happen again. We don’t plan on getting pregnant for a while so I feel like we’ll get back to normal in some ways. Boy do babies seem to really throw me off. Is that normal? Is it also normal to picture yourself with just the amount of kids you currently have? I’m 97% sure I want more kids but 3% sure that I don’t, at least and especially right now. I wonder how I would be viewed as the Mormon mom who chose to have only 2 kids (not that I view moms with 2 kids any differently). Weird. But not relevant to think about at this point. Like I said, I’m sure I’ll get the baby bug several years down the road and bam it’ll happen again and I’ll love it.
I love watching my boys interact with each other. William is only 8 months old so he’s not really ‘playing’ per se but they interact and follow each other around, make each other laugh and are just very aware of each-other. I know as time passes they will fight more, that’s inevitable but my goal is to teach them how to forgive each other and think of eachother’s needs instead of their own and most importantly how to have fun together and love being with each other. Lofty goal? Maybe…but an important one. My chances are pretty high though I must say simply because of who they have as a father. He’s a pretty amazing guy, one of a kind, genuine person so how could they not turn out great? They love him SO much. I feel so blessed.
The other day I told David that when he graduates, it’s my turn to go get a job and be out of the house so that they get sick of him and love me when I walk in the door. hehe
Do you know what freedom tastes like? We do. We are so close to being free from classes and then school altogether that we can taste it. It’s torture. But that’s how it goes. It’s fun to dream and plan and dream some more. It will be fun to see where we actually end up. Who knows??!!
But for right now we enjoy the simplicity of our life. I get to stay home with the boys while David wears himself out at school. We enjoy simple evenings together and then it starts all over again the next day. It’d be easy to call it monotonous and boring but I don’t. At least most days I don’t. I have a strong feeling that we’ll look back on this phase of our life and long for it in ways. It’s simple and slow but the beauty of this life is we can learn to enjoy every phase of our lives by being grateful and keeping perspective. The Gospel gives us all the tools we need to be happy, no matter what. How wonderful. Dontcha think?